how come…i’m getting emo and emo now….i don’t know why…and i don’t know what the hell is going on inside of me these few days…my friends said i’m getting emo and emo now…..but….i dont really wanna be an emo girl and always standing at the back when everyone is in front of me……but i couldn’t push myself to stride even a step to be with them…..i just can’t put up even a smile on my face….not even a word to say…..
Everything is screwing me up….i’m really sick of this life….. the damn stupid tense….confusion…hesitation..despair…grievous…and i hate everything now….not even want to step out of my home and go for my favourite shopping….seems like nothing can attract me now…!
I’m really getting run amok…I cant concentrate in class…ya,one of the causes…..i hate all the subjects in this sem…..everything theory and theory and i damn damn hate theory…..why there’s not even a numerical subject in this sem??!!!
And i’m really in the midst of grievous and despair….and i’m now worrying about the those stuffs again…..I really want that very badly..i’ve studied so hard for it but now…..people tell me that it’s another way round….I really cant lose it…..i don’t want to lose the smile on their faces…i don’t wanna see the despair look….but i’ve tried so hard with all my effort on it…..I can’t stand with it anymore…God..Please help me…..
For my dearest friends out there……I’m sorry i’m behaving in such way….and sorry for the ignore and sorry for for being emo….and sorry i can’t tell you why….cause you just can’t understand me…..i can’t stand with those criticisms anymore……i rather let you stab me thousand times at the back than deeply in my heart……you’ll never know the pain,the grief,the anguish…..and there’s no one you can talk to to release the soreness,to heal those wounds….and you just crying in the dark…..you’ll never ever know that terrible feelings….
I just hope that people out there….please don’t hurt anyone else and make fun of somebody else…you might take it as a joke but it might not be for that person…we are borned with emotions and feelings,too…please stop it now…
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