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Aug

[ [ LONG or Short better????

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it’s hard to judge something when people are just flattering around to make you pleased.

i know it’s kinda mean to tell somebody that somethings just go weird on them cause i know it’s hurt. but perhaps somebody might need the judgement or need you to point them out .
erhmmm. . . okay. . actually, what i meant here is my haircut * = =" *

Unconsciously, i’d kept my long hair for a decade. My grandma told me that i had a long straight shining hair since i was a lil’ lil’ girl. Nobody dares to cut my hair unless i authorized them. * what an obstinate bloody kid i was! *

but no more long hair lady for her,alynn. I’d chopped my hair off when i was 15. Not so willing actually, just for some unavoidable reason. . erhmm…not realy unavoidable la, just gave a big help to my bestie-aunt. And now, this is me again with a lil’ short bob hair. Well, felt like i’ve thrown off few kgs of hair now…not really used to it at first but quite okay already recently. Yet sometimes i’ll feel like my hair isn’t with me, i mean its kind of bold & bare feelin. . .yeah~ just BOLD like this! * O.O* thats funny huh?! well, i’ll commit suicide if i become ~~Botak~~ weh!!

oppss!!so sorry, topic a bit terpesong liao. .~~

Actually, what i really wanna express here is just that simple. Long hair or short more preferable on me? = = ""

i know this topic is quite wu liao & nonsense but you also know la. .
"女人是天生爱美的 " ei WAIT!! nowadays guys lagi 爱美 than ladies weh~~~ but guys! you better don’t over the board! later you become ah gua jiu sei lorhhh~~ later year by year guys semakin pupus ah~ then lots of TB & Lesbian on this earth! * i’m not against on homosexuality ,k?! anyway, i’m a pretty open-minded person & people out there should think of the positive way if you wanna survive in this advanced century. YOu have to accept what/who/how others’ being. No offense for this people,k?! * ohya, don’t misunderstand! I’m not a ~~gay~~ woman anyway!

Actually i saw a sweet girl today. She has a long brown curl hair and when i saw her backside, i was like. . god!i love her haircut so badly! how many years will my hair takes to grow just long like hers?! I don’t think i can wait larh. . Thats my problem la. I’m sorts of eccentric person & i got a trend inside of me. An "always-cut-hair-trend" . Well, i love to cut my hair. I used to change my hairstyle for more than 3 times in just 6months time. Rebonding, colouring, perming. . everything i’ve tried. Then what happened now is my hair gone damaged!!
sial. . . . kira a retribution of what i did to my hair lorh. . * T.T *

Some of them said i look good in this lil’ short haircut but some said long hair looks better on me. But all these people that said long hair suit me more are those that flattering & saying in front of me that short hair are just nice on me. Then made me pat myself at the back & an shuang inside!! wakhaoweh~~

so for those who read my blog, i mean this post, don’t hesitate to leave some comments on that simple question, "Long or short hair more preferable on me?"
Hehehehe. . . perasan pulak~~~~~ actually want you guys to give some opinions so badly. * grin smileee*

ohya, the insane trend is still on-going inside of me. . . i might cut my hair once again these few weeks so you gotta be fast yea!!!! Even if you don’t know me or think how the hell i look like with long & short haircut, you may check my photos in my Friendster photo albums . Thanks a lotttt ^^

Aug

一见钟情 ` ` ` LovE at First sight?

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met someone today,

"eh hi, you again ah?!you come to shopping alone again ah? where’s your friends?"

" oh, ya, alone. My friends? almost all in kampar ~ "

well, again, i was all alone shopped in a mall big like heaven, and i was just strolling as i got no any directions to go for, north. . , east , then west . . .then south. . .

why? why i didn’t really enjoy at all?? Shopping ’s always my favourite & i could even shop around without companions. but why?? every shopping mall seemed like turned into a world-weary place now. . .

and me, rambling . . and. . rambling. . . .

well, since i’ve got no where to go, why don’t i go to "Mph" huh? hmm, not a really great idea but at least i could sit down & rest my legs & READ?!

and then, i found another great so-called self help book by the famous author, Paul Arden. Anyone heard of him before?? Actually, at first i didn’t know this author at all, . . i mean i didn’t even know there’s a person named Paul Arden in this world who came out with lots of great books until few months ago, somebody showed me a book titled "WHATEVER YOU THINK, THINK THE OPPOSITE" This is a real famous book,doesn’t it?! HIs books are always being mentioned as "The World’s Best Selling Book" and i actually got into a love at first sight with the title & also the cover of the book. But one thing that i really be fond of it is there are lots of simple yet meaningful pictures in it. I love books with less words yet more pictures at the same time. *O.O*

hey,wait! don’t get excited yet! I wouldn’t be talking bout that book. sorry if you guys misunderstood yea! = ="

i’m actually in love with another book of him at the same time =) It is " It’s Not How Good You Are, It’s How Good YOu Want To Be" .

Well, i like few phrases he wrote in it, such as "Don’t look for the Next Opportunity, the one you have in hand is the Opportunity!" It reminds me on don’t ever give up on every chances i have to achieve what i want. People always persuading themselves whenever they don’t work hard for something by mentioning that there’ll be lots of chances in future & you just have to wait! Does it really mean like that??? well, different people, different perspectives..

ohya, he did mentioned someone i’ve been admirer of. . Victoria Beckham, a.k.a Posh. He wrote a lil’ story of her on how she became successful & well-known from a young, ambitious girl. And he did quoted "If we don’t get lost, we’ll never find a new route" yeah~this is so make sense, doesn’t it?

Those books are totally out of the box and really gave me different perspectives about anything, anything you that realized of or perhaps unwittingly.

Nevertheless, i guess we won’t have the honour chance to read his masterpieces ever again cause . .i’ve heard a news from net that he has passed away after suffering heart attack and he died at his 68. what a loss * T_T *

Yet, he did inspired many people in this world, those people who lost in the pathway, those who lived in such narrow minded way & also helped those who don’t even know how to spend his/her leisure time as purposeful as possible like ME~~

GRAB them from any bookstores out there, will you??? =)

Aug

3 years & 7 years Legendary??

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i heard lots of real stories from people around me. .

My friend told me that he broke up with his ex-girlfriend after 3 years they’ve been together. Then, one of my relatives broke up with her bf after they’ve been together for 7 years. Yea~ 7 YEARs!!! I’m not joking & it’s not funny k. well, you thought that someone you’ve been loving for 7 years would be your better half for the rest of your life, but it ended up with the only words "Break Up" ~ This is so stupid right? But when it’s not yours, it’ll fade eventually. . . no one has the force or strength to change somethings that has been destined. .

Before i heard these stories, my sister told me that in a relationship, if you can overcome all the obstacles between you & your lover during the 3rd year you guys been together, then you and your partner will be okay until the 7th year. If you guys can hold out again, it’ll be happy ending then. . . but this is somethings called Legends , a thingamabob that no one knows whether it’s true or it’s only a
legendary. . .

For me, it’s kinda true yet not really that logic. My dear & i have been together for 3 years & 8 months. This 3rd year of us has been the hardest year for us. Many things happened unwittingly. But just 3months more to go. . Just 3 months~ Hopefully we’ll live through everything!

Anyway, don’t think of the future of you and the one you love,just enjoy every precious moments you guys have been spent together. . cause you’ll never know he/she is the genuine partner of you until the end of your life. You’ll not regret then if the relationship ends because at least, at least you guys do really enjoy every single moments that are so blissful. .

A no-happy ending relationship can be also somethings treasured because you’ll still live along with the memories & memories are long-lasting. . . it’ll be with you till the end of your life. . .

Aug

clubbing ? ? !

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k, i guess you’ll laugh your ass out when you heard this…yea~ my very first time clubbing experience… so what?? so what? just laugh out loud, i’m okay, i can accept my innocence! LOLs… =="

i went to Bar Celona last wed with bunches of girls and guys for my bf’s friend’s birthday celebration. Well, i thought wanna dedicate my first clubbing experience on my 19th birthday but already gave away pulak. anyway, it’s a pretty good experience tho i got shocked actually but pretended like i was okay and accepted. *sweat*

hmm. . . sexy girls all around, ~~fucking~~ loud music beatings, the lightings that makes me giddy like going to faint, alchohols everywhere, smokes, super-sexy dancers on the tables . . .and i did drank a lil’ alcohol drink, is it chiva’s??? emmh.. i didn’t know what i drank! *O.O* yea, this is so-called clubbing i guess. .

well,from what i felt, clubbing can be considered as a place to relax yourself & the musics are so-damn loud that makes you so high & forgot everything’s perplexed. And everyone’s dancing around with the beats of the music, shuffling around . . . oh..you couldn’t really control your body when the music’s around! my body moved along with the beats unconsciously. . .

but it’s better to wash your clothes immediately after that, the odour will stick on you and even Giorgio Armani fragrances couldn’t save you. Lols. . . *kidding* but it’s the truth that you’ll smell badly and it’s so so badly…

alrights, perhaps will go with my girls next time. . . i know they ‘ll want it!
Hahahas. . . .

p/s : hopefully my parents won’t read this! * grinning *

Jul

these thingamajig……………?!

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well, i guess humans think a lot when they got nothing to do since their brain won’t stop processing even when they sleep and that’s the moment where they’ll think something deeply or perhaps something’s crazy….and yeah~ same goes to me as i’m a human being also O.o

i wondered..
God is so brilliant ! HE creates us as a human being not only our body, our personality, our brain, our emotions, our life & our relationship but everything. It’s something that couldn’t been explained through words.It’s something unsubstantiated.It is something that’s so natural that we couldn’t even realize how or why it goes like that…

I started to squeeze my brain and think profoundly… First, GOD creates a person. This person is then fill up with a complete body (tho some people don’t) and after that personalities. And then HE creates a life for that person. In that life, HE fills it with something called FAMILY. Perhaps HE wants that person to learn something called Care & Love where FAMILY is the first place to start them off. Besides, when that person feel distress or hurt,and when that person got no where to go or perhaps all over the place… FAMILY is the only people and place for them to reach lastly.

Besides that, GOD knows that person will need someone called FRIENDS in the his life to learn from each other, share joyfulness with each other and also perhaps a lil’ cherish huggie to each other. Again i wondered, GOD created bunches of friends in my life. These people are those strangers I’ve met directly or indirectly, feels like GOD have already made something like a spider-web. It links to each other. Every lines seem important to complete each other. Just like i need friends to complete my life, to live my life in a felicitous way…

Other than Family & Friendship, GOD also creates a bizarre thingy. Something that makes you gone crazy…something that makes you blind as a bat and..something that makes your heart goes up & down or makes you feel heebie-jeebies..and maybe makes you lose your bearings……yea~ spell it out loud….it’s L-O-V-E! It’s always been weird for me..i was wondered…why humans are such stupid? Why they get so crazy and perhaps change themselves for someone so strange? Why they’ll give anything treasured away to a stranger??Why??……..but now what i thought is It’s not like that actually. GOD don’t want you to be alone for the rest of your life, HE knows you need a partner to go through this life and to make your life enriched. Yea~ The truth of love shows everything… it’s unexplainable until you really feel it….

Well, i guess i should stop before i gone insane thinking of these thingamajig..

Lastly, i do really wanna THANK GOD for everything HE created in my life…I’ll appreciate everything & live my life to the fullest =)

May

g o n e . . . .

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It’s 6am in the morning….
still, sleepless..
yet, the same things…keep on appearing & bearing in my mind….again & again…

plus, my final examination results which i’ve been waiting for so long is coming out tomorrow eventually…
hope amituofo & kuan yin will "popi popi" me & get a good results [praying]

i don’t know why,
again, i feel something’s wrong inside,
it’s unexplainable, uncountable.
emptier inside, i sense.
something’s struggling sorely…
tell me what it is?!

i wondered again,
why things always turn up to be the worst?
why there’re something undoable?
why there’re always "come & fade" ?
why nothing lasts forever?

i’m silly….
i’m always foal up what i have.
i’m always appreciate things or people around me only when they’re gone.
i’m always hiding myself, my real feelin.
i never speak from the bottom of my heart.
i never take action to reach what i want, i ruin them instead.

i’m self-centered,
i only know the grief, pain & sorrow in myself.
i never concern & aware of people around me.
i ain’t see through everything.
i’m always expecting people to give & contribute.
& i lie to protect myself against hurt.

& now,
everything has gone,
they’ve disappeared,
& i watched the footsteps they left,
the shadows i missed,
& i keep on recalling the conversations we had,
the words you said,
& i keep on assembling every single broken pieces of the memories I’d,
yet, nothing’s gonna turn back,
tears form behind my eyes,
pain of regret drowning me deeply,
dying inside, unhealed. . .

May

God created my fate that way………………………..

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I wonder why……

Should i feel lucky with my fate?
or i’m just misfortune?!
or i’m the one buggered up my own life?!!! perhaps i was……

I feel so helpless right now….i’m sick as a parrot…
I
wanna study in a good university…..it’s ain’t cause the other
universities or colleges out there are bad….It’s just because i want
to have a brighter future…I just want to have a pretty good job in my
future.

but i don’t want to burden my parents…
So, i’d studied so hard in my SPM to obtain an excellent results….&….Thank GOD i’ve made it!

with
the results,what could i do??yea…go and apply jpa, petronas
scholarship….or apply any award…or else get into a good uni…
those were what normally a student will do….

BUT guess what did i do???

yea….I’ve
did nothing!!!!…..feel like wanna bang myself to the wall….I’m
spackhead…I’mma silly sausage…. I didn’t even know what’s jpa,
petronas scholarship….any award that time…and how to apply…I was
just like a stupid fella sitting at home with the results & waiting
for ns….I’m damn INNOCENCE huh~~~
BLOODY HELL…………………………….

I didn’t know i kira lucky or what la…..There were lots of uncle aunty wanna help me…
One
aunty said "Oh,Taylors. Taylors is good. My son working in the
management of Taylors.I can ask him to help you.."….then another
aunty said "Study at Sunway is good. My son is a manager there, i can
ask him to assist you." Then another uncle said "Aiyo,tell you la.All
these expensive schools not good 1…They just want to earn $$. You can
try tarc & utar….My son studying mechanical enginneering at
tarc.I got a friend working there, she can help you"

AIYOOOO…. PENING KEPALA LOR….Who should i listen to?? [my dad lagi blurrrrr =="]

THEN,
the night before i went for national service, my dad told me that his
friend is a lecturer from tarc and he might helps me or consults me in
pursuing my studies…Waw~ he’s very experience..He told me everything
and get me over…SO WHAT?? Everything was too late…the closing date
was almost reached.And i needed to pack my bags for khidmatnegara…
BLOODY HELL…………………………..

And
so and so….I went to UTAR. You know what?..I’ve totally no idea at
all how this uni looks like, where is it and….. i just didn’t know
anything about UTAR….and i thought…UTAR=KTAR…
walao,
KNS oo…Both of these are totally separated & not really linked
together. And hell, i didn’t know UTAR is going to move to Kampar. When
i knew about this, i was like .."huh?wheere is kampar?!"
But UTAR no doubt is a great environment to study [not b'cz of the location]…

And
now…I’ve finished my Foundation Programme. Yet, I’m still
searching….searching for the uni that suits me…searching for uni
that provides me a scholarship………..yet I’m still lost….I’m back
to the wall…I’m still between a rock and a hard place…

can anyone help?????

no,i guess………………………………………….cause God created my fate to be that way……..and it should be that way…………

Oct

emo….

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how come…i’m getting emo and emo now….i don’t know why…and i don’t know what the hell is going on inside of me these few days…my friends said i’m getting emo and emo now…..but….i dont really wanna be an emo girl and always standing at the back when everyone is in front of me……but i couldn’t push myself to stride even a step to be with them…..i just can’t put up even a smile on my face….not even a word to say…..

Everything is screwing me up….i’m really sick of this life….. the damn stupid tense….confusion…hesitation..despair…grievous…and i hate everything now….not even want to step out of my home and go for my favourite shopping….seems like nothing can attract me now…!

I’m really getting run amok…I cant concentrate in class…ya,one of the causes…..i hate all the subjects in this sem…..everything theory and theory and i damn damn hate theory…..why there’s not even a numerical subject in this sem??!!!

And i’m really in the midst of grievous and despair….and i’m now worrying about the those stuffs again…..I really want that very badly..i’ve studied so hard for it but now…..people tell me that it’s another way round….I really cant lose it…..i don’t want to lose the smile on their faces…i don’t wanna see the despair look….but i’ve tried so hard with all my effort on it…..I can’t stand with it anymore…God..Please help me…..

For my dearest friends out there……I’m sorry i’m behaving in such way….and sorry for the ignore and sorry for for being emo….and sorry i can’t tell you why….cause you just can’t understand me…..i can’t stand with those criticisms anymore……i rather let you stab me thousand times at the back than deeply in my heart……you’ll never know the pain,the grief,the anguish…..and there’s no one you can talk to to release the soreness,to heal those wounds….and you just crying in the dark…..you’ll never ever know that terrible feelings….

I just hope that people out there….please don’t hurt anyone else and make fun of somebody else…you might take it as a joke but it might not be for that person…we are borned with emotions and feelings,too…please stop it now…

Sep

i want my guitar!!!!!!

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i want a guitar now!!!!!!!!! can anyone out there get me a guitar!!!…i wanna play a song..play hard and sing out loud to release everything!!!!!! and kick away those stupid tense that screw me up….i want my guitar!!!!!!! i need you….

Sep

i’m not as what you think…..

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Hu~~~~Finally….finally that paper has passed!!!!!!!!!!!

ya,my computer studies paper just over today!! the paper that almost everyone is frightened of…the paper that has made most of us(**i think majority**) couldn’t sleep well…some even never got to bed and sleep…studied overnight..non-stop!!!!!! Gosh~~~what the hell is going on???????is this really the so called "UNIVERSITY" life??? is the life with "BOOKS" and without "SLEEP" only considered the life of a uni student??!! I just can’t make sense with it!!!

Yesterday…and it’s the very first day…i drink coffee to make myself awake so that i wouldnt fall asleep when i was revising….it’s because i was really curious of the so called "coffee power" that can make us alert all the time… ya…now i’ve know the truth now…

ya, the coffee……is really a coffee….It made me just couldnt fall to sleep even i was damn tired!!! what the heck!!! before this, whenever i see my comfortable bed in my room,i just can’t get away from it…i will lying deadly and rolling on it..BUT YESTERDAY..when i wanted to step forward and approached myself to the bed… i didn’t know why my body wasn’t under the control of my processor(**is my brain actually—>my mind is bursting with computer studies now**)….i was feeling like somebody is trying to stop me!! why har??

okay, just forget bout the coffee…the next day, in the very early of "LOVELY" morning(*erm…not very early also la..around 8.30am ma*), i got up and went to school…there i met my friends in the library and continued the "WAR" !! and here came the problem…i was wondering why’s everyone out there doesn’t believe on me that i didn’t study as much as what they thought…and why they always thought that i know everything as i’m better than a GOD??!! but, i tell you la…i’m still like a frog that never get out from her shell…!! and that’s why i didn’t expound to them so much because as a chinese quote "jie shi shi yan shi"…..since i know that it will only turn up as different denotations…i try to snubbing what people judged on me and what they nagged about me…but you know what…i can show you the smile and take it as a joke..but it doesn’t mean that i will not deem about it and i will bare it deeply in my mind!!! that’s because i learn to ponder over any comment or judgement especially the negative comment by others and take it as a guideliness to improve myself to be better and better…!!you can say that i’m too pessimistic or anything else..i just dont care!!!

nevertheless, dont think that i can accept everything…

i just can’t….